“I’m a paradox. I want to be happy, but I think of things that make me sad. I’m lazy, yet I’m ambitious. I don’t like myself, but I also love who I am. I say I don’t care, but I really do. I crave attention, but reject it when it comes my way. I’m a conflicted contradiction. If I can’t figure myself out, there’s no way anyone else has.”—Unknown (via imprecisions)
So disappointed in myself this week, been so lazy. When I have so much work to do. It’s like I hit a brick wall with motivation and trying to write essays/reports and like I physically can not get past it. I need to sort it! The longer I leave it, the more of a stress it is. So wish I could be one of those people who are super self-motivated to do work. HELP!
Oh and all the time I just realize how lucky I am to have such great parents and just so lucky in general. I can’t believe how ungrateful and horrible I was when I was younger. I literally am so angry and disgusting at my past self that I could ever say horrible things about my parents.They have done everything possible for me, and given me everything I ever needed and more and supported and loved me through everything. Appreciate and be thankful for what you have :)
So happy and content with life right now, Got my luke, got my pharaoh, uni is going well and enjoying this year so much more on all accounts. All my housemates are pretty cool and we have a reet laugh. Just pretty darn happy, living in the moment bruv.